I HATE MYSELF

I HATE MYSELF     ☺☺☺☺☺☺

GOT INSPIRED AND WANTED TO SAY THE SAME THING 

TO ALL READERS(TAKEN FROM) ↯

(https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/3czy9i/i_hate_myself_because_of_my_physical_appearance/)

I've had lots of complex myself for since I was a kid, crocked up teeth, big head, etc ..: All of those thing would be relative, but these last few years I got one that it's not. I'm balding. I'm losing my hair at the age of 21.

I can't look myself at the mirrors, I can't take pictures of myself, I can't look myself at reflections otherwise I get anxious and depressed, suicidal thoughts appears asking myself why I'm so damn ugly, why because of something I can't fight (genetically forced) I'm so inferior to the vast majority of the rest of the people.

I don't care what you guys say, looks matter, first thing you do when looking at someone is judging solely by his image, first impression, and from there you take decisions or judge that person. Making friends when you are ugly? Hard. Trying to get a girl to like you? Impossible.

I've never had a girlfriend or had a girl to like me, its painful seeing people with relations being happy and me not being able to experience the feel of being loved, always lonely simply because my physical appearance.

Living like this is too painful for me, and it won't get better. Everyday I will lose more hair, look uglier, older, etc..: For a very long time during my life the following day has been worse than the last. It's hard to keep on going when you hate the person you see in the mirror every morning, when sometimes you look at yourself and ask ¿Is that really me? and get depressed.

I don't socialize a lot anymore, I try to hide my face and head as much as I can when on public, I am inferior because of my genetics, people who triples my age has more hair than me, looks better.

When you've been like this for so long suicidal thoughts might start appearing, once I was so anxious about doing it, but I just want to respect my parents until they pass away, then I'll won't have anyone left that I care too much for and finally become free.

This is a message for all of you who're physically average and lonely, go out and talk to people, you'll like them and eventually become friends and build relationships, enjoy the luck that I've been deprived of this life.